have passed since you left us.
Questions, accusations, reprimands and more to follow.
I want to believe that you would be disappointed in the path we have all chosen. I sit alone, lost in a sea of disbelief and angst...the past I know doesn't exist anymore, overcome with a reality people changed to be able to live with their own issues.
Today, I dont want to be me. I would love to go back and share a cup of tea, a laugh, a hug.
Regrets are many, memories are more so, despair is inevitable.
Believe it not I miss you.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Sometimes
Sometimes you feel as though you are treading water
other times you just want to sink to the bottom.
Sometimes you want to acknowledge your regrets
other times you know others are taking care of that for you.
Sometimes you fight the fight for the right reason
other times people fight it for you.
Sometimes you want to say "Enough"
other times you know that someone somewhere may be rooting for you.
Sometimes you want it all to be over,
other times no matter what promises to God you make, it is taken out of your hands and over before you want it to be.
Sometimes the biggest disappointments are solely on the shoulders of those you trusted most,
other times the helping hand comes from a complete stranger.
Sometimes you are proud to be you
other times you are embarassed to be.
Sometimes.
other times you just want to sink to the bottom.
Sometimes you want to acknowledge your regrets
other times you know others are taking care of that for you.
Sometimes you fight the fight for the right reason
other times people fight it for you.
Sometimes you want to say "Enough"
other times you know that someone somewhere may be rooting for you.
Sometimes you want it all to be over,
other times no matter what promises to God you make, it is taken out of your hands and over before you want it to be.
Sometimes the biggest disappointments are solely on the shoulders of those you trusted most,
other times the helping hand comes from a complete stranger.
Sometimes you are proud to be you
other times you are embarassed to be.
Sometimes.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Cuts like a knife.
Today will go down as a day of growth.
Today will be remembered as the day my heart was broken, my trust destroyed and the world ended.
Today I gave up.
Today I called the CAS on Marnie and filed an official complaint that she herself is a negligent self serving mother. She showed up here at 2 pm with 2 policemen, and removed Kaey. Damien was aware she had done this, and I may never see Kaey again.
She went to Shannas.
The girls are furious and concerned for Kaey.
Marnie will always be a dram queen and I will never trust her again.
Today she cut my heart out with a knife...and still she wants to be right.
Ok Marnie you're right...I now hate you and your ignorance, I hate how you treat people,and i hate how you are nothing more than a self serving pathological liar hell bent on destroying those who love you.
Today will be remembered as the day my heart was broken, my trust destroyed and the world ended.
Today I gave up.
Today I called the CAS on Marnie and filed an official complaint that she herself is a negligent self serving mother. She showed up here at 2 pm with 2 policemen, and removed Kaey. Damien was aware she had done this, and I may never see Kaey again.
She went to Shannas.
The girls are furious and concerned for Kaey.
Marnie will always be a dram queen and I will never trust her again.
Today she cut my heart out with a knife...and still she wants to be right.
Ok Marnie you're right...I now hate you and your ignorance, I hate how you treat people,and i hate how you are nothing more than a self serving pathological liar hell bent on destroying those who love you.
Monday, November 14, 2011
A Pinch of This....
is back, alive and baking up a storm!
To find the perfect buttercream, to sample the perfect lemon, chocolate, or vanilla bean...this is my goal for the next month.
I'm going to need a webpage, some photos and a whole lot of thin people....lol!
One flavor at a time...life is about to heat up!
@ApinchofThis if you have twitter.
To find the perfect buttercream, to sample the perfect lemon, chocolate, or vanilla bean...this is my goal for the next month.
I'm going to need a webpage, some photos and a whole lot of thin people....lol!
One flavor at a time...life is about to heat up!
@ApinchofThis if you have twitter.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Remembrance Day
When all the world is awash with wonder
While memories overcome those who made the sacrifice in either child, husband, father, or friend.
While many will praise the amazement of 11:11:11 on 11/11/11.
We will bow our heads in Silent prayer and say Thank You for the freedom that is mine.
Your sacrifice will not be forgotten lightly.
While memories overcome those who made the sacrifice in either child, husband, father, or friend.
While many will praise the amazement of 11:11:11 on 11/11/11.
We will bow our heads in Silent prayer and say Thank You for the freedom that is mine.
Your sacrifice will not be forgotten lightly.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Good morning Blogland...
So much going on.
Van I bought is uncertifiable...so I sold it to some guy AS IS for 400, and the digital stereo for 300...made back my money! Yes I did get ripped off but lesson learned! Dwight thinks he can get me a good deal for under 1000, and he is picky so I'll trust him...looks lie more buses for right now.
Kathleen was not accepted for Canada's Got Talent 2012, but i am so proud of her anyhow for taking the initiative.
Shauna is becoming all girly on me, and Marnie is in exam week. Alysha, Leah's mom...is just a major pain in my arse right now and I have had enough of the crap...so steps were taken to protect Leah from more drama.
Shanna has a page on Facebook now for her photography, and her father and i are impressed with her eye for the camera, she gets it from her grandmother I'm sure, Pat too had an eye for that kind of thing. Doug Sr has surgery yesterday and I haven't caught up with Doug, but I'm hoping he is OK....age is horrible.
Had an interesting session with Kathleen at JH this week....cathartic for sure. Made me aware of what IS my responsibility, and what is NOT mine to take blame on....moving forward.
Cupcake pics to be posted later this week... I'm excited.
So much going on.
Van I bought is uncertifiable...so I sold it to some guy AS IS for 400, and the digital stereo for 300...made back my money! Yes I did get ripped off but lesson learned! Dwight thinks he can get me a good deal for under 1000, and he is picky so I'll trust him...looks lie more buses for right now.
Kathleen was not accepted for Canada's Got Talent 2012, but i am so proud of her anyhow for taking the initiative.
Shauna is becoming all girly on me, and Marnie is in exam week. Alysha, Leah's mom...is just a major pain in my arse right now and I have had enough of the crap...so steps were taken to protect Leah from more drama.
Shanna has a page on Facebook now for her photography, and her father and i are impressed with her eye for the camera, she gets it from her grandmother I'm sure, Pat too had an eye for that kind of thing. Doug Sr has surgery yesterday and I haven't caught up with Doug, but I'm hoping he is OK....age is horrible.
Had an interesting session with Kathleen at JH this week....cathartic for sure. Made me aware of what IS my responsibility, and what is NOT mine to take blame on....moving forward.
Cupcake pics to be posted later this week... I'm excited.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Wow...finally feeling like a person, i decided to come back and catch up...
Life is a blur..so here it goes, groceries, overnight sleepovers, visits with dad, ids in and out, laundry, nap time!, coupons organized, course on coupons, meals planned, meals made, more laundry, two grounded teens fro one night.....and now....
a cup of tea just for me! Site updated for blog, surveys answered and passwords changed....sigh....tomorrow I will have more!
Life is a blur..so here it goes, groceries, overnight sleepovers, visits with dad, ids in and out, laundry, nap time!, coupons organized, course on coupons, meals planned, meals made, more laundry, two grounded teens fro one night.....and now....
a cup of tea just for me! Site updated for blog, surveys answered and passwords changed....sigh....tomorrow I will have more!
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