You cannot erase completely...

the mistakes
the lies
the drama
the truths
the choices
the pain
the hurt
the love
the laughter
the joy
the sadness
the happiness

you cannot pretend it never happened or that you are any better than anyone else...because at the end of the day alone on a piece of sand you will totter like everyone else, fighting for an equilibrium to breath

Sometimes

it's just best to walk away
Believe that Ignorance is bliss for many
Smile at the drama but refuse to become part of it

Know at the end of it all...you can hold your head up and say I was there for you when you needed me, you chose not to be...I cannot change you but I can change how I allow people to treat me.

Comfort Food

Comfort food!
Nothing says loving....lol...like remembering when I'd walk in the door and my mom was making my ultimate comfort food.  The smell, simplistic yet so...screaming she loved me...


I am sharing my  recipes for the best dinner I ever got to eat.


Simply put mac n cheese, corn fritters, breakfast sausages and stewed tomatoes....filling and a hug all wrapped in one!


Corn Fritters

Ingredients

• 3 cups oil for frying
• 1 cup sifted all-purpose flour
• 1 teaspoon baking powder
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 1/4 teaspoon white sugar
• 1 egg, lightly beaten
• 1/2 cup milk
• 1 tablespoon shortening, melted
• 1 (12 ounce) can whole kernel corn, drained

Directions

1. Heat oil in a heavy pot or deep fryer to 365 degrees F (185 degrees C).
2. In a medium bowl, combine flour, baking powder, salt and sugar. Beat together egg, milk, and melted shortening; stir into flour mixture. Mix in the corn kernels.
3. Drop fritter batter by spoonfuls into the hot oil, and fry until golden. Drain on paper towels.

Macaroni n cheese

Prep Time: 15 minutes

Cook Time: 25 minutes

Total Time: 40 minutes

Yield: Serves 6

Ingredients:

• 8 ounces elbow macaroni
• 4 tablespoons butter
• 4 tablespoons flour
• 1/4 teaspoon dry mustard
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 1/8 pepper, or to taste
• 1 cup milk
• 1 cup light cream or half-and-half (or more milk)
• 2 cups shredded sharp Cheddar cheese
• 3/4 cup breadcrumbs tossed with 2 tablespoons melted butter

Preparation:

Cook macaroni following package directions. Drain in a colander and rinse with hot water; set aside.

Butter a 2-quart baking dish. Heat oven to 350°.

In a saucepan, melt 4 tablespoons of butter over medium-low heat. Stir flour into the butter until smooth and bubbly. Stir in the dry mustard, salt, and pepper. Gradually add milk and cream, stirring constantly. continue to cook, stirring constantly, until thickened. Add cheese and continue to cook and stir until melted.

Combine the macaroni and the sauce and turn into the prepared baking dish. Sprinkle with the buttered bread crumbs and bake for about 25 minutes, or until hot and bubbly and topping is lightly browned.
Serves 6.

4 Years

have passed since you left us.
Questions, accusations, reprimands and more to follow.

I want to believe that you would be disappointed in the path we have all chosen. I sit alone, lost in a sea of disbelief and angst...the past I know doesn't exist anymore, overcome with a reality people changed to be able to live with their own issues.
Today, I dont want to be me.  I would love to go back and share a cup of tea, a laugh, a hug.

Regrets are many, memories are more so, despair is inevitable.

Believe it not I miss you.

Sometimes

Sometimes you feel as though you are treading water
  other times you just want to sink to the bottom.

Sometimes you want to acknowledge your regrets
  other times you know others are taking care of that for you.

Sometimes you fight the fight for the right reason
  other times people fight it for you.

Sometimes you want to say "Enough"
  other times you know that someone somewhere may be rooting for you.

Sometimes you want it all to be over,
  other times no matter what promises to God you make, it is taken out of your hands and over before you want it to be.

Sometimes the biggest disappointments are solely on the shoulders of those you trusted most,
  other times the helping hand comes from a complete stranger.

Sometimes you are proud to be you
  other times you are embarassed to be.

Sometimes.

Cuts like a knife.

Today will go down as a day of growth.
Today will be remembered as the day my heart was broken, my trust destroyed and the world ended.
Today I gave up.


Today I called the CAS on Marnie and filed an official complaint that she herself is a negligent self serving mother.  She showed up here at 2 pm with 2 policemen, and removed Kaey.  Damien was aware she had done this, and I may never see Kaey again.

She went to Shannas.
The girls are furious and concerned for Kaey.
Marnie will always be a dram queen and I will never trust her again.


Today she cut my heart out with a knife...and still she wants to be right.


Ok Marnie you're right...I now hate you and your ignorance, I hate how you treat people,and i hate how you are nothing more than a self serving pathological liar hell bent on destroying those who love you.

A Pinch of This....

is back, alive and baking up a storm!

To find the perfect buttercream, to sample the perfect lemon, chocolate, or vanilla bean...this is my goal for the next month.

I'm going to need a webpage, some photos and a whole lot of thin people....lol!

One flavor at a time...life is about to heat up!


@ApinchofThis if you have twitter.